Losing Memories

Losing my mum has no doubt been the hardest thing in my life, it has been over eight years since she passed away in hospital. Of all my memories, that is unluckily the one that is imprinted in my memory the most.
I resent the fact I lost her so young, because all my memories are fading and all I can ever seem to remember is little sketchy snippets. Her voice is gone, it is always like a silent movie whenever something does appear in my mind.
Whenever I am down and on my own, my mum is the first person I think of and most often I end up in tears because I long for her. I long for her never ending faith in me, her support and comfort and everything else my mum used to do and be for me...even through her own pain and illness, my mum could still be awesome.

There is a song I play, its called 'I Turn to You by Christina Aguilera'. Regardless of the singer, this song means a lot in regarding my mum as it gives me a very vivid memory from when I was younger.
The song was playing on my personal CD player that I often used to listen to while trying to sleep, but one night I recall being awake when everyone was sleeping. Sitting on my mum's chair while she slept on the couch, where she often used to sleep.
Listening to the lyrics of this song pulled my heart strings as I watched my mum sleeping so peacefully, and they made my eyes fill up with tears because she was the one I turned to, she was the one that protected me. She was always so brave in my eyes, for always being there for me.

I Turn To You Lyrics

When I'm lost in the rain, 

In your eyes I know I'll find the light, 

To light my way.

And when I'm scared, 

And losing ground, 

When my world is going crazy, 

You can turn it all around.

And when I'm down you're there - pushing me to the top. 

You're always there, giving me all you've got.
Chorus
For a shield from the storm, For a friend, for a love to keep me safe and warm

I turn to you.

For the strength to be strong, For the will to carry on

For everything you do, for everything that's true

I turn to you.

When I lose the will to win,

I just reach for you and I can reach the sky again.

I can do anything

'Cause your love is so amazing,

'Cause your love inspires me.

And when I need a friend, You're always on my side

Giving me faith

taking me through the night

(Chorus)

For the arms to be my shelter

through all the rain,

For truth that will never change,

For someone to lean on,

For a heart I can rely on through anything,

For that one who I can run to...
(Chorus x2)

I turn to you...

That is a snippet from the heart.

The List of Things to Do

A while back I wrote this list, which I forgot about....I can score some off now I think!

1. Learn to drive and pass a driving test.

2. I want to travel a bit, and see some countries abroad - Australia, America, Italy, Germany, Canada, Europe

3. Save up for a house with Andy, a proper mortgage house.

4. See the Northern Lights - I think the Northern lights are beautiful and I would love to travel to a Northern   country like Iceland, Finland or Norway to see the beauty

5. Visit more places in the UK- I would like to see more of London, and I would love to go to Wales as well! I just want to see more of what is in my back garden rather than abroad lots. I have an idea of doing a small holiday one year, whilst saving up for a big holiday the following year.

6. Have a baby - I am certainly very broody, and have been for the past couple of years now. I want to start planning a family around 2014, as I will be 27 and I think that is an ideal age.

10. I am really into photography, even though I haven't been capturing images recently....but I would really like to sell my photographs.

11. Disney World in Florida with Andy's family - as I think it would be magical!

12. Make more crafty things - this is definitely completed as I love crocheting!!

13. Knit 10 things (completely!).


14. Go on a really cool cruise.

15. See all my favourite comedians!

16. Help a charity - I started helping knit-a-square charity a while back, although I need to get back into it and crochet some squares for them. Ironically this charity is what lead me to learn crochet.


Although I need to think of less travel things and more affordable or free things to do :)

Crochet Blog

I have created a blog dedicated to crocheting since I love it that much....you will find it here!

Enjoying writing in a space that is just for my crochet things, while I can use my personal blog to vent and ramble about everything else...

I hope you enjoy reading as I will updating my crochet blog!!

Crochet Heaven

I graduated in July, I have not found a job yet...so I tried my hands at crocheting as it has been intriguing to me. Turns out I enjoy it much more than knitting, knitting is good but it just doesn't have the quick flexible feeling that you get with crocheting.

Crocheting has kept me going in the past few months, I know its only been a little time unemployed but when you have little money its a very nice hobby to have when it costs so little and takes up your time...and is very relaxing. I enjoy it so much I have even tried selling pieces. I made this cowl for a friend as he made a request, and he loves it.

I am really handy at making hats especially beanie hats, I love making them out of chunky wool but sometimes with double knit wool so i can get different colours!

Granny squares are my newest love in crocheting! I remember loving the granny square blanket my mum made me as a kid, and now that I can crochet I am making a comfy chunky one myself! I am also making a granny square baby blanket too!

Although there is a blanket I have seen that I think looks amazing, and I think I may also try making something like it!  It is so colourful, its absolutely amazing...it may take me forever to make, but I can't resist. I found it on Attic24!

I know what I will be doing for christmas presents, as I wont be able to afford expensive gifts...crochet crafting ahoy!

Changing Priorities...

It's crazy how you move through time, your priorities change, the things you enjoy and dislike change. Beginning of university, I remember it was days of minimal studying and in the pub every night with my mates spending my student loan, and of course living with my dad.

Moving through the university years, spending less time drinking and more time studying, getting engaged to my boyfriend, moving in with my fiancé...

Now graduating, looking for PhDs and I rarely go out for drinks.

I am in my mid twenties almost, never thought of the day where I would be saying that and now I am thinking about having babies in my late twenties.....but I want to get married first, be a bit traditional.

Since it wont be long until I am in my late twenties, I figured I would start doing some planning now...I must say I am feeling really excited, even though the list of responsibilities with it seem to mounting up along with the budget....but bring it on!

Time to become bridezilla!

Graduation Celebrations

Photographs showing various bits through my day, which was wonderful but very exhausting. It's strange to think I am now finished and I actually have a degree, now onwards to the next...hopefully a PhD! Ready! Set! Go!

Knit-A-Square - First Package to Post

Feeling excited now, I have my first package to go to South Africa and it contains my two knitted squares and a crocheted square with a personal note saying that I made them.

I am also knitting a square vest as well, as you can make them hats, socks....anything that will keep them warm :)

For more details on how YOU could help, visit Knit-A-Square to see what you could do to help! It doesn't take much time at all!!